December 2, 2018

Moments like this I so glad for technology and well I’m very glad for this blog for many reasons. This most important is that I can say things with our fear of my words being changed around to benefit someone else. Or that anxiety or sensation like feeling of people are not really listening to you. Most of the time it doesn’t bother me as most of us do this to others even me. Though I try my best and I hate when I don’t listen and once it get hard to break. The thing I understand as based off everything I experienced throughout my life is that most people don’t like being ignored. Most humans are social and all of us have experienced someone not listening to you. It happens but lately I have come to the understanding that you can tell if a person gives a shit or not. First, you got to remember everyone’s brains work differently and when a person is really like really focused on some sort of task, they are most likely not going to hear everything. I know from my own experience of this on both sides, like when I catch myself doing it or others doing it to me. Now this is where it can take some time to know or see when a social interaction with another person is more stress and anxiety then it is worth. I’ve always loved the 3 times is a charm thing as I’ve kind of used that as my rule of thumb for somethings. This instance would be social interactions that seem sour or not response back. I don’t know I just notice it more and catch myself before I waste energy. I’m not saying be an asshole or something.

Well I’ve seem to be in the probably the shittest of shit situations I have ever been in. And because of this I’m believe in karma and how people don’t think about how their actions affect everyone and everything. The situation I’m watching unfold gives me the most absolute deepest sadness in more then one way. I’ve never felt this before and in a way. My mom had said something to me about something else a while back “think about how your actions affect others“. I’ve told myself I’ve always wanted to watch karma truly unfold to people who do things that are just not right. Now I’m regretting as stated I’m truly sad and depressed as well as I feel like I’m continuously walking on egg shells. It sucks when I bust my ass too to overcome the walking on egg shell when I’m in constant pain with bulging discs from my neck down to my lumbar from a car accident in 2012. I feel bad for all the other affect by this retarded shit that should have never fucking happened to me in the first place.

The thing is I’ve kind of always been bullied so I can see through people’s actions a bit more. But because my love for knowledge, science, and facts I take more deeper looks at things and situations as one understanding I do have is most people are good. Just at that dumbass stage in their lives. Though the person or persons who said the statements that lead to this entire situation are bad people. That I know for sure. I just wish that it had never happened but I know I can’t make others do things or not fucking lie.

Anyways, thank you for reading. if you don’t know what I’m talking about go a head and contact me here: Contact the creator or read this article which is the only other public post about this situation.

This didn’t just hurt me as a person but also a business owner as well. It makes it hard for me to try and promote my own thing or even want to talking about myself around them as I never know if someone is changing my words around. Not only did I not deserve this is a prime example of one of our problems in society. Bullying which is the cause of mental issues including anxiety and depression.

Thanks again for reading.

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