Friends & The People Who Come Around Who You think Are Friends By Ru-Kun

Hello everyone and how is it going today? I hope you guys are doing well and being safe out there. I’m, doing ok, just stressed out a little bit and probably going to be a little depressed as I write this blog post as it going to be a little hard to write about. At times it felt like something is trying to stop me from writing this post. In fact I created this post about a week maybe after my wedding and having really been able to work on it since then. But I have created other content so I still have been able to get stuff posted on the site.

Now first I’m going to say that at the age of 42 I’m still learning new things and what not including human behaviors. At this age I had thought some people in my life would have a a little bit more consideration, thoughts, and other all respect for such a friendship. Fuck, I don’t know. Maybe I’m just having a hard time trying to figure out how to explain it. But one thing I have always found is that when it come to anything in human nature actions speak louder then words. A lot of people seem to only do things when they get something in return or some sort of benefit from such a situation. I’m really just at a loss of words of how to explain this above so I’m sorry if I’m not making this clear. So I will just jump into the situation that prompted me to write this although I would have written a different style post as I kind of want to write something out of my experiences of life that could hopefully help others. 

So anyways, over the years I thought my group of friends were close enough to be considered true friends. Over the years my some people who were friends seem to have exited my life for one reason or another, most reason are for fucked up shit like stealing, lack of care of support of whatever, like goals and what not. Sad, reality is a lot of my life I done just that for others, no always because no one is perfect, but I don my best to try and raise up others I care or cared about. I would like to go in to this a bit further but I want to leave that from another post/time as I’m planning on sharing my story of my life and some of the shit I have been through or seen/experienced. 

So, for most of all your readers out there I recently had my wedding to my best friend and love of my life and in fact my very first wedding at 42 years old. I’ll be 43 soon. Now we planned it for a year, maybe a bit longer but we did plan ahead and in the beginning I starting asking my friends and family that I thought would most likely to say yes. Those I thought would say yes did and with that being said they were that first ones I had got on my coming list. Then, some people I contacted that I thought might come. Some gave answers or maybes other didn’t even respond, it kind of frustrated me. I have a hard time focusing on things with the amount of stuff I got going on including doing my best to overcome what covid has done to my small little business and projects including this Thoughts Of Everything project. Now, fucking not getting answers made it harder for me to finish gathering thing I needed and what so some invites went out a bit later. Also, it seem as if some people didn’t even get an invite when I sent them out or at least that is what I was told. One even said he got his opened with a bunch of other mail in a big envelope after I had brought him a second one which sucked as my awesome and beautiful wifey put some time into them. Like magic, bitches LOL.

But either way, I had good size list of people that said they were going to come and good amount of people from my supposedly group of friends. It’s hard to say what kind of shit went on but either way this article is how it turned out and prompt for my post creation as stated earlier. Now we got head counts the closer my wife and I had got out head counts of who was coming the closer it got to the wedding as we had to make sure to have enough food and seating. Now a couple people RSVPed back to whether they were going or not some did but I knew they said they were coming. 

Now the closer we got to the wedding the closer we were needing to get thing done and rehearse how the ceremony would go and with this being said  I contact the ones who were supposed to be in my wedding party and let them know we were having a that Sunday a couple day before May 17, 2022. I didn’t really ask for much let alone had any of my friends help out for my wedding. One friend who is the one of my wedding party told me he wasn’t coming at this point. This fine as he told and let me know a head time and there was a fix in the number of horned cups we order for all those in the wedding party. Now I still didn’t hear back from the other wedding party member at this point for the wedding rehearsal. Wedding rehearsal day beside my awesome family, one friend from my wedding party showed up and helped out with out being asked Thank you True Doz’ia you are a true friend. I did hear from another friend before this about him possible getting 

Wedding day is here and the ceremony was planned to be at 1pm. @Vivicawolf and I got there pretty earlier to get ready and people started showing up around 10ish-11isham. Pictures were suppose to be at 12pm. True Doz’ia show up as he was the one I decided to have as my witness and one of my groomsmen. Thank god I didn’t choose the other person to be my witness. Now the closer we got to picture time 3 groups of my friends were not there yet one being part of my groomsmen. So we did pictures without him as we couldn’t wait any longer. The time is a little bit after 1pm when we are suppose be doing the ceremony the 3 group of friends did not show up, one supposed to be my groomsmen. Now we decided to start the ceremony with out them. BTW Still heard nothing from any of them, fucking stupid. Now, I finally heard from the long lost groomsmen is a Facebook comment on a picture I posted after we did the ceremony. Basically, one friend and his wife I never met showed up and my family. God damned awful one friend of the supposedly the so called big group of friends I have. Kind of hurtful as well. Lot of my family said those people aren’t my friends. Kind of show it to me as well But it is kind of hurtful. Though, my year behind me has also slightly desensitize to this kind of bullshit.

I will say this blog post was pretty hard to write but I’m glad I did. Now like said earlier I plan on writing my story a bit more but I plan on making them member only post to get you to create an account on our site and something things discuss might not be so public/NSFW so that what I plan. I seen a lot of bullshit in my life and been bullied a lot during my school year so maybe if can help someone else but maybe to also help myself. Now I also want to mention that my step kid came out as my trans son with his best man speech which was important for him and was super hard because my wife’s family is super Republican’s and conservative. Even sat their table and talked shit about him while he gave his speech which I was super fucking proud of. Now I wonder if those 3 groups of friends would have talked shit as well because they are also super republican/conservative. It’s hard to say because those assholes didn’t even some 2 never contacted me at all. Fuck them.

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Lost A Good Buddy And Family Member, Mental Health/Drug Abuse Is A Major Society Issue.

Hello everyone and how is it going today? Hopefully you all are doing well. I doing ok better then when I was going to first write this post which was about a couple weeks ago. It’s still going to be hard to write it but I will, be able to to my best.

So a couple weeks back I had heard from one of my family members that another one of our family members had past. He was a foster nephew but a friend as well. But thing I didn’t know had happened like him being homeless and having issues with drinking alcohol and abusing drugs. I couldn’t really see him as a drinker and never really could see him doing anything other then cannabis. Didn’t know he was in treatment more then once. Last, never even knew he had been living on the streets and this winter here in Spokane, Wa was a cold one. From what I understand he was found outside by the police. This is the only information I had got about the whole thing. But I will say that my buddy/foster nephew also suffered from Aspergers and hard time focusing i.e. ADHD. I not sure if there was anything else but sure he did suffer from depression as well. His blood family from what I understand has abandoned him as well and/or are drug addicts. 

So with all this it’s hard to say this going on, if there was much more that could been done to give people in this situation but I will say that if the people in my life haven’t given up on me I could be in this situation. In all honesty, if I would have known he was in this situation my wife and I would have let him stay at our house especially because this winter was a cold one. But this goes to show part of our system that are broken. Again let me repeat I don’t know the whole story but I do know from experience in the system myself, the parts that are failing. 

With all this being said I kind of what to blog about this a bit and more of less may my buddy rest in peace as this place is such a cruel world. Glad to have met ya. 

Now remember everyone remember not everyone has the world best support system or someone to talk to. Sometimes all you can do is just be there for someone. Thanks for reading.

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I Can’t Make This Shit Up Full Episode 1 Video Part 2

Hellos everyone and how is it going? Hopefully well. Now we are back the “You can’t Make this shit up” episode. Well, it going to be called Thoughts Of Everything can’t make this shit up.. Now I got a pretty crappy video up on on our Thoughts Of Everything youtube channel see our video below.

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You Can’t Make This Shit Up Pilot Episode 1

Hello everyone and how is it going today? Hopefully you all are doing well. I’m doing ok but my work weeks starts on Thursdays which is today while I’m writing this post, not sure if I will be able to finish writing it, but I sure in the hell am going to try and finish this post. This blog post isn’t going to be that long anyways.

Now speaking of work, as soon as I came back from a leave of absence from testing positive for Covid19, you can read about my experience here on my last post: https://www.thoughtsofeverything.org/preservation-of-all-life/well-i-tested-positive-covid-got-sick-as-shit-and-this-is-my-experience/. Now I’m not sure which day but I have been back to work for very long. 3 days at the time of blogging about this shit,

Now I had this thing I used to say when I was a partying teenager, don’t remember the age but I think 14 or 15 years old. That saying was “everything is a conspiracy, if it’s not a conspiracy, I can make it a conspiracy of it’s own. I never understood that statement until this whole political environment and the covid19 pandemic adding to the already fucked up system. There is belief systems/opinions and there are facts. Now I can not make this shit up. I heard someone state in the breakroom at my work that “the covid19 vaccine creates immune system issues that allow you to catch HIV easier to catch for the purpose of the HIV vaccine in development by Moderna. Now this is one wild conspiracy and the person who said it had a serious look on their face. Now I joked around with other people for the rest of the night after we all heard it. But I’m still kind of shaking my head about it and it’s almost been a week since I heard this comical shit.

2-18-2022 EDIT: So, I’m adding more to this post and what I’m adding to it was not planned and it was the newest breakroom statement from the crazy conspiracy theory person. Now, last night while I was on break at work that same person that stated all the crazy shit above stated another stupid crazy ass conspiracy. But one other thing I want to mention about the HIV thing that I forgot to mention earlier. More or less it’s about the year the first HIV vaccine was invented or more or less the first clinical trial opened up and that year is 1987 (History of HIV Vaccine). 

Now with this above, like I stated we are going further with the newest statement. I’m still facepalming right now from this whole ordeal. So this guys states that “the conflict going on between Russia and Ukraine is for the purpose of distracting everyone from the covid19 vaccine protests.” Now fucking joke, re-read the previous sentence if you need to because shit like that is hard to believe. First little Facts Of Everything, is the conflict between the two countries has been going on since 2013 (Ukraine/Russia conflict). Now me hearing shit like this make my little statement I said when I was a teenager that “everything is a conspiracy, if it’s not a conspiracy I can make it a conspiracy of its own'” So damn true.

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Well, I Tested Positive Covid, Got Sick As Shit And This Is My Experience

Hello everyone and how is it going today? I hope you all are being safe out there. LOL and yes I know I say this statement almost all the time if not all the time. But I guess that how I like to start my post, But, anyways, I still wish you all to be safe out there and if your have a Thoughts Of Everything user account maybe even comment on this post with random shit. Or not, it does matter, though I would love to see the Thoughts Of Everything community grow. Moving on.

So as the title of this post says I had tested positive for Covid19. Now first I will say my family and I do our best take prevent the spread of Covid, i.e. wearing a mask, washing hands and other such stuff. I’m also vaccinated but not boosted. My wifey is vaccinated and boosted. She got her booster right when we caught Covid. The fact of the matter is we had symptoms for about a week or 2 before and testing negative like the little shit was trying to hide itself from being detected LOL, jokes. So that was on the Jan 31, 2022 when I tested positive, but had symptoms for about week before. My wifey had symptoms for almost 2 weeks before testing positive and she tested positive before me but also gets tested more then I do due to the place she works at testing her all the time.

Now it’s hard to say where we got it as a lot of fucking don’t take shit seriously. I still see people not WASHING THEIR HANDS. Sadly it’s seem like half the world is dumb as shit, my county has a high number of them. But it really not the time to blame.

So, like I said both my pretty wifey and I had a pretty rough time. Both of us are vaccinated, but each of us has a different vaccine. She has the Pfizer (PFE stock code) vaccine and I had the Moderna (MRNA stock code) vaccine. But we both still had a pretty hard time for quite a few days. Both of us had stuff nose, sore throats, issues with breathing, muscle and body aches like no tomorrow. Tiredness like no tomorrow to the point that things like getting up to eat or drink was task and half. Sharp pains throughout my chest at random, around my lung and ribs.

Now I am finishing writing this post well after I had finished my required quarantine and feeling much better. But still having a small amount of issues like every so often have issues catching my breath, every so often still feeling pretty fatigued, and joint pain or body aches in random spots like wrists or other part of my body. Wrists were the only thing I can think as I had some pretty painful aches in my wrists. I still seem to be tired a lot easier can’t play videos as long and shit. I just hope the rest of this shit goes away, but FYI I’m pretty sure I’m negative as my wifey gets tested at work as stated earlier in this blog post and had to be negative to be able to come back to work. My case different as I just did the full 10 days but actually had to do a little longer because somethings on my leave of absence for Covid19 for work got messed up more then once. First time was my fault, then I not sure what happened after that but calling Amazon (AMZN stock code) HR sucks sometimes. But either way I plan to get my booster here soon was planning on doing  so before I got covid and I will say I wouldn’t wish this on anyone. 

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OMG! I Can’t Believe The Shit I Find Online Kind Of A Racist Blog Post I found Viewing Ads

OMG! I Can’t Believe The Shit I Find Online Kind Of A Racist Blog Post I found Viewing Ads

Hello everyone how is it going today? I know I asked this twice already today as I normally don’t write more then one post a day at if I can as most of the time I busy with back end work such as dealing with hackers and spammers. Plus working on other parts of my network as well all by myself. But I will say that it’s nice to be able to write more the one post. In all brute honesty I personally think I’ve been slacking and not doin enough, but I also look at the factor I work full time 6 days a week and also trying to kick things up a notch in other aspects of my business/ideas. 

Now this little post is not something I think you would normally see everyday but more recently I been seeing all lot more shit like this that I about to discuss below. Shit like this is part of what makes me lose faith in the human race. Anyways, there are racist all of the world and I personally think they are pieces of shit and should be shamed. So, yesterday or the day before I came across a Blogspot/Blogger page that had some pretty racist and ignorant blog post that was an ad on a website that your can earn “Beer money” from I don’t remember the site but if I see that ad again I will not be clicking on it as I don’t want to give the page anymore views. Now I’m not going to even post the link to the blogger post in my article as I don’t want to give it traffic and also don’t want it leading back this this site so easily. 

So, I will be posting some screenshots of the post in question below and because the whole post wouldn’t fit in one screenshot I had to take two, but the second one has the link to the site/post if you just can’t stay away from it. But I suggest not giving it anymore views. But the title of the article should say enough “How B****s Got Democratic” and as you can tell I didn’t even want to put the full title as I find it offensive often to not want to even type it out but you can see it in the screenshot below.

Now remember you can click on the image to view full size of the screenshot. Now I really don’t want to say what is in this post on this site but I think hate and stupid thought processes such as what you see above has no place in our society. I’m pretty deep inside this person who wrote the article is a racist but again this is only my opinion at the time as I only made this speculation based on the wording through the article and in the title of the article. In fact that is what caught my attention when I saw the ad and I was actually kind of in shock, almost couldn’t believe what I was seeing and someone actually wrote this stupid shit. saying such things as calling other humankind creatures saying they are “unequipped” for what this person stated “autonomous ideas”. Sorry guys it to hard for me to explain and I do what to have too much as I probably would have to provide my source but the source is still located in the article i.e. the website link being in the second screenshot image. But I would rather not give this person/blog/website any more website traffic then I already have given it. But please check out and read the screenshots you see what I mean.

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Better Humans Bureau (PTC/GPT, etc, scams/cheaters episode one with Ru-Kun

Hello everyone Rukun here with a nice little video that I never wanted to make but at least I have some good site to thank for being cool with the situation. Please watch below as Thoughts Of Everything is going to become a total sponsor for Better Humans Bureau. Right now I’m announcing the we will set the ground works for the ideas of Better Humans Bureau and I will be working on the forums here soon. I was kind of hoping the site but people LOL. Me against the world and I hate it LOL But I take in stride XD.

I give shouts out to some very honest sites in this video below but I advise you to open in youtube so you can get the links to some honest great advertising site. We are going to create a legal way to catch and shut down scammers and cheaters a like.

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What Trigger’s You and How To Smash Your Box Your Stuck In

Hello everyone, Ru-Kun here. How is everyone today? So I’m going to share a video that I had shared on my Facebook profile a while back that helped me think and look at things from a different prospective or outside of myself. It’s a video from guy named and here a link to Jp Sears on Facebook. My free link share of a very helpful guy. In this video Jp is with a guys named Audrey Marcus where they are discussing the ego and things that trigger it and how to address or look at it from a outside of the box prospective.  I like the fact that Facebook sometimes show your things you shared from years previously. This video I shared on Facebook 2 years ago and just reshared it. Now I’m sharing it here as well because I thing it can be very helpful to all. It is still very helpful for me as I’m always working to be better even with my amount of limitations. I’m in the process of creating my own as I would rather something easily evolve-able. Something that can be handed over to my step daughter after my fiancé and I pass away. It’s like that point I would rather break my body creating something of my own than to break my body for someone else i.e. another company where they will throw you away. The thing I have been trying to over come is my limitations and understanding I will NEVER be able to make everyone happy like I would like to. Haters will always hate I just got to spot letting them bother me. Right now I’m working on getting out of one place where I feel like there is a swarm of haters. Anyways here is the video I’m talking about on Facebook.

Crushing the Box You're Stuck In!

How to get out of the box you're stuck in… and then crush the box! I drop in with my legendary friend Aubrey Marcus and I for some entertaining wisdom!(subscribe to watch entire interview: awakenwithjp.com/subscribe)

Posted by JP Sears on Thursday, October 12, 2017

Thank you very much for reading my post as well as watching the video I shared even though the video isn’t mine.

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