So lately I have been under a lot of extra not needed stress lately due to some issues at work that I have never experienced or I ever would have believed to have happened to me. But it happened and my anxiety and ultimately my depression has been on the rise. I hate how much emotions can make physical health much worse if you already have issues such as I do with a back and neck injury that doesn’t go away. I have it managed to a point but pains are never going away. So as I have been feeling like I have been walking on egg shells at work with this situation that had happened, because I’m a goofy white man LOL I’m not going to go into that but maybe later in member only content. Anyways, I glad I got this site up and running again as it is kind of like my therapy. Anyways, before I begin I will say that I listen to just about everything from rock, metal, rap, blues and even electronic and dance music.
Anyways at the place that the situation had occurred I have been hearing this song playing overhead while I’ve been cleaning the store I felt it was kind of catchy but also I kind of felt a sadness that I couldn’t explain. So I spent sometime looking it up-the internet is so damn awesome-I probably took longer to find them without the net. I basically looked them up by song lyrics in Google. The song is called American Dreamer by Kyd the Band. Very good song and I plan checking out the other songs a bit more later. When I looked up the lyrics I started to understand the sadness a bit more. Maybe I just read to much into things but this is Thoughts of Everything and I the creator am the sole thoughts provider right now at the moment. But I was much moved and glad to have heard this song. In a sense this is how I feel about the girl I am with I want to buy her a house and share it forever. Even hand it down to her daughter. What saddens me is how most who end up in the situation where they lose the house or even when having hard times with making ends meat they fear that person leave them as it happens all the time in society as love seems to a bit more materialistic which doesn’t make a good team at all. But it happens.
Quote from song: “I think I wanna buy you a house
I think I wanna share forever right now
And if the bank man comes to steal it away
I hope you, I hope you stay” American Dreamer by: Kyd the Band