Hello readers and bots alike LOL. Well, today here in the US is Thanksgiving Day and also Black Friday stuff too. What sucks is though I do get to spend most of the day at home I still have to work at 5pm to 3am PST to night. And I’m the lead cleaner for KBS at Kohls so I planning for a really busy evening tonight. But I’m thankful that I have a job. I have a loving pretty girlfriend in my life I will marry this girl. A good family without them I wouldn’t be where I am today. Despite all the shit going on in the world we all still have it pretty good. Heck I’m thankful for the dumb asses that keep trying to hack this web site as it allow me to test out different security options though I just wish I didn’t have to do it to begin with but can trust some human. Anyways thanks for reading and you all have a nice day.
So as I was saying in my last I was just going to trey and smile at random people. I kind of do that already anyway as I like to smile and make people smile as well. But I want to think that I’m doing it more. But the thing I think I going to have the hardest time doing especially for this web site LOL blog even I still really hate that word. Anyways since I’m pretty much at work most of the time it would still seem to be very forced. Sometimes yes that is true but there is a lot of shit that makes me unhappy in this world but we are all at fault for this and still will be as we all greed and selfishness rule our lives. Nut as they all say that is how life is. Sad. But anyways at my other job with KBS cleaning Northtown Kohls (Spokane, Wa USA) I had couple old ladies come in the store frowning and as soon as they saw me smiling at them and saying good morning they said good morning. I think one even said I do a good job on the windows as I was cleaning the entrance doors glass. But I don’t plan on being there much longer as it’s killing my back and my spine. Beside I think my company could do it better once I get a crew of people and some income flowing in above my and my company’s means. I think I smiled at a person outside the day before and they just looked at the ground the whole time. LOL I don’t think they even noticed. I sure they would of ran into a poll if one came in the way. Another person last week just looked away. Rude
So lately I have been under a lot of extra not needed stress lately due to some issues at work that I have never experienced or I ever would have believed to have happened to me. But it happened and my anxiety and ultimately my depression has been on the rise. I hate how much emotions can make physical health much worse if you already have issues such as I do with a back and neck injury that doesn’t go away. I have it managed to a point but pains are never going away. So as I have been feeling like I have been walking on egg shells at work with this situation that had happened, because I’m a goofy white man LOL I’m not going to go into that but maybe later in member only content. Anyways, I glad I got this site up and running again as it is kind of like my therapy. Anyways, before I begin I will say that I listen to just about everything from rock, metal, rap, blues and even electronic and dance music.
Anyways at the place that the situation had occurred I have been hearing this song playing overhead while I’ve been cleaning the store I felt it was kind of catchy but also I kind of felt a sadness that I couldn’t explain. So I spent sometime looking it up-the internet is so damn awesome-I probably took longer to find them without the net. I basically looked them up by song lyrics in Google. The song is called American Dreamer by Kyd the Band. Very good song and I plan checking out the other songs a bit more later. When I looked up the lyrics I started to understand the sadness a bit more. Maybe I just read to much into things but this is Thoughts of Everything and I the creator am the sole thoughts provider right now at the moment. But I was much moved and glad to have heard this song. In a sense this is how I feel about the girl I am with I want to buy her a house and share it forever. Even hand it down to her daughter. What saddens me is how most who end up in the situation where they lose the house or even when having hard times with making ends meat they fear that person leave them as it happens all the time in society as love seems to a bit more materialistic which doesn’t make a good team at all. But it happens.
Quote from song: “I think I wanna buy you a house
I think I wanna share forever right now
And if the bank man comes to steal it away
I hope you, I hope you stay” American Dreamer by: Kyd the Band