So first this is going to be a multi-post meaning it will have more then one topic. This is because I have a lot going on and I kind of need to write as well for more then one reason. First I posted my job blog post on this site in the Craigslist resume section to one increase my views and also start trying to get a different and better paying jobs that cares and works well with person’s with disabilities as that is what I am. Here is the Craigslist posting: https://spokane.craigslist.org/res/d/about-that-time-to-get-better/6701339654.html I’m only looking of work in the Spokane, Wa US area unless remote work is available. Also I wanted to state that soon I will be having a premium member access and payment options soon to help cover costs of running the site and if I run into any issues with my posts. Although, I do my best to be right in that I as well as the site never intent to harm anyone but in some sense people do it to themselves and what goes around comes around is what I truly believe and maybe it is because of some of the things I have seen throughout my life.
Anyways, so today I’m in a lot of extra pain and it hurts like hell. I don’t have my actual medical records available at this time to give you guys what is actually going on but I will say I have bulging disc from my neck down to my butt. and some compression on my annular cord in my thoracic area. Today it really hurts at times to a point it makes me want to to give up as it so unconformable and makes it hard to move. And let me put it this way. I work 47 hours a week on average and one day off a week. This is part of the raise I want a different job or where I’m making enough running my own company I don’t need to work for anyone else. Right now I’m trying to make it and deal with it as much as I can. All this shit because of a car accident and now I have to deal with this for the rest of my life. I am thankful for the amount of tools and medicine have available and the help. Thank you for reading my complaining. Today is just one of those days where I’m in a lot of extra pain.
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So lately I have been under a lot of extra not needed stress lately due to some issues at work that I have never experienced or I ever would have believed to have happened to me. But it happened and my anxiety and ultimately my depression has been on the rise. I hate how much emotions can make physical health much worse if you already have issues such as I do with a back and neck injury that doesn’t go away. I have it managed to a point but pains are never going away. So as I have been feeling like I have been walking on egg shells at work with this situation that had happened, because I’m a goofy white man LOL I’m not going to go into that but maybe later in member only content. Anyways, I glad I got this site up and running again as it is kind of like my therapy. Anyways, before I begin I will say that I listen to just about everything from rock, metal, rap, blues and even electronic and dance music.
Anyways at the place that the situation had occurred I have been hearing this song playing overhead while I’ve been cleaning the store I felt it was kind of catchy but also I kind of felt a sadness that I couldn’t explain. So I spent sometime looking it up-the internet is so damn awesome-I probably took longer to find them without the net. I basically looked them up by song lyrics in Google. The song is called American Dreamer by Kyd the Band. Very good song and I plan checking out the other songs a bit more later. When I looked up the lyrics I started to understand the sadness a bit more. Maybe I just read to much into things but this is Thoughts of Everything and I the creator am the sole thoughts provider right now at the moment. But I was much moved and glad to have heard this song. In a sense this is how I feel about the girl I am with I want to buy her a house and share it forever. Even hand it down to her daughter. What saddens me is how most who end up in the situation where they lose the house or even when having hard times with making ends meat they fear that person leave them as it happens all the time in society as love seems to a bit more materialistic which doesn’t make a good team at all. But it happens.
Quote from song: “I think I wanna buy you a house
I think I wanna share forever right now
And if the bank man comes to steal it away
I hope you, I hope you stay” American Dreamer by: Kyd the Band
See what I mean. Here is the video as so good:
Thank you Kyd the Band for a great song.;
So as mentioned my introduction post I’ve been dealing with a back/neck/spinal injury from a car accident I had got into back on Oct 20, 2012 which was 8 days before my birthday. So needless to say my birthday is sometimes hard to deal with as a lot of things that I like to do are limited and/or can’t even do anymore at this time.
Anyways, I’ve been dealing with this injury for a long time. I tried and have gone through multiple treatments and tried just about everything. I find that there are a few things that work but only work partly. When it comes down to I prefer to stay as holistic/natural as possible. But the problem with that is that most insurance companies don’t like stuff like chiropractic and massage therapy. Or acupuncture which I have not tried yet as I will most likely have to pay for it out of my pocket. I have done chiropractic and massage therapy which I had to stop because of reasons I’ve been advised not to discuss but I will say that my insurance company is covering my medical bills right now though some thing I had to have covered by Washington Apple Health. I will say I’m not happy with my insurance company. But that will be all I say at this time. I’m back into my chiropractic treatment again but I’m only able to afford once a week at this time as I’ve been paying for it out of my pocket. I’ve gone through multiple injections like nerve blocks and trigger point injections, a few different prescriptions but I would like to get off it as now it feel like a band-aide and I feel it is making symptoms worse and/or causing new ones. At this time I only take Nortriptyline 25mg nightly which is suppose to help me sleep which had done so in the beginning. I take a lot of herbal supplements like triphala power, turmeric to help with going to the bathroom and inflammation. This does help too. But I’ve also been doing a lot of research in to other alternative holistic healing methods.
So long story short I will say that at the current standing I have multiple bulging disc from my neck down to my lumbar area. There also a disc degeneration in the lumbar area and a facet degeneration in cervical spine. I also have an EMG coming up to see if I have any nerve damage and such.
I will say that today I’m having a bit of a hard time and it’s even hard to sit here and type this post. My pain scale is 7 and I feel really nauseated like I’m going to throw up.
Well thanks for reading though I don’t care if you read this or not. This blog is more for myself then anything.
I first posted this on this blog here: https://russlk.blogspot.com/2015/04/the-everyday-issues-living-with.html