Hello everyone and how is it going today? I hope you guys are doing well and being safe out there. I’m, doing ok, just stressed out a little bit and probably going to be a little depressed as I write this blog post as it going to be a little hard to write about. At times it felt like something is trying to stop me from writing this post. In fact I created this post about a week maybe after my wedding and having really been able to work on it since then. But I have created other content so I still have been able to get stuff posted on the site.

Now first I’m going to say that at the age of 42 I’m still learning new things and what not including human behaviors. At this age I had thought some people in my life would have a a little bit more consideration, thoughts, and other all respect for such a friendship. Fuck, I don’t know. Maybe I’m just having a hard time trying to figure out how to explain it. But one thing I have always found is that when it come to anything in human nature actions speak louder then words. A lot of people seem to only do things when they get something in return or some sort of benefit from such a situation. I’m really just at a loss of words of how to explain this above so I’m sorry if I’m not making this clear. So I will just jump into the situation that prompted me to write this although I would have written a different style post as I kind of want to write something out of my experiences of life that could hopefully help others. 

So anyways, over the years I thought my group of friends were close enough to be considered true friends. Over the years my some people who were friends seem to have exited my life for one reason or another, most reason are for fucked up shit like stealing, lack of care of support of whatever, like goals and what not. Sad, reality is a lot of my life I done just that for others, no always because no one is perfect, but I don my best to try and raise up others I care or cared about. I would like to go in to this a bit further but I want to leave that from another post/time as I’m planning on sharing my story of my life and some of the shit I have been through or seen/experienced. 

So, for most of all your readers out there I recently had my wedding to my best friend and love of my life and in fact my very first wedding at 42 years old. I’ll be 43 soon. Now we planned it for a year, maybe a bit longer but we did plan ahead and in the beginning I starting asking my friends and family that I thought would most likely to say yes. Those I thought would say yes did and with that being said they were that first ones I had got on my coming list. Then, some people I contacted that I thought might come. Some gave answers or maybes other didn’t even respond, it kind of frustrated me. I have a hard time focusing on things with the amount of stuff I got going on including doing my best to overcome what covid has done to my small little business and projects including this Thoughts Of Everything project. Now, fucking not getting answers made it harder for me to finish gathering thing I needed and what so some invites went out a bit later. Also, it seem as if some people didn’t even get an invite when I sent them out or at least that is what I was told. One even said he got his opened with a bunch of other mail in a big envelope after I had brought him a second one which sucked as my awesome and beautiful wifey put some time into them. Like magic, bitches LOL.

But either way, I had good size list of people that said they were going to come and good amount of people from my supposedly group of friends. It’s hard to say what kind of shit went on but either way this article is how it turned out and prompt for my post creation as stated earlier. Now we got head counts the closer my wife and I had got out head counts of who was coming the closer it got to the wedding as we had to make sure to have enough food and seating. Now a couple people RSVPed back to whether they were going or not some did but I knew they said they were coming. 

Now the closer we got to the wedding the closer we were needing to get thing done and rehearse how the ceremony would go and with this being said  I contact the ones who were supposed to be in my wedding party and let them know we were having a that Sunday a couple day before May 17, 2022. I didn’t really ask for much let alone had any of my friends help out for my wedding. One friend who is the one of my wedding party told me he wasn’t coming at this point. This fine as he told and let me know a head time and there was a fix in the number of horned cups we order for all those in the wedding party. Now I still didn’t hear back from the other wedding party member at this point for the wedding rehearsal. Wedding rehearsal day beside my awesome family, one friend from my wedding party showed up and helped out with out being asked Thank you True Doz’ia you are a true friend. I did hear from another friend before this about him possible getting 

Wedding day is here and the ceremony was planned to be at 1pm. @Vivicawolf and I got there pretty earlier to get ready and people started showing up around 10ish-11isham. Pictures were suppose to be at 12pm. True Doz’ia show up as he was the one I decided to have as my witness and one of my groomsmen. Thank god I didn’t choose the other person to be my witness. Now the closer we got to picture time 3 groups of my friends were not there yet one being part of my groomsmen. So we did pictures without him as we couldn’t wait any longer. The time is a little bit after 1pm when we are suppose be doing the ceremony the 3 group of friends did not show up, one supposed to be my groomsmen. Now we decided to start the ceremony with out them. BTW Still heard nothing from any of them, fucking stupid. Now, I finally heard from the long lost groomsmen is a Facebook comment on a picture I posted after we did the ceremony. Basically, one friend and his wife I never met showed up and my family. God damned awful one friend of the supposedly the so called big group of friends I have. Kind of hurtful as well. Lot of my family said those people aren’t my friends. Kind of show it to me as well But it is kind of hurtful. Though, my year behind me has also slightly desensitize to this kind of bullshit.

I will say this blog post was pretty hard to write but I’m glad I did. Now like said earlier I plan on writing my story a bit more but I plan on making them member only post to get you to create an account on our site and something things discuss might not be so public/NSFW so that what I plan. I seen a lot of bullshit in my life and been bullied a lot during my school year so maybe if can help someone else but maybe to also help myself. Now I also want to mention that my step kid came out as my trans son with his best man speech which was important for him and was super hard because my wife’s family is super Republican’s and conservative. Even sat their table and talked shit about him while he gave his speech which I was super fucking proud of. Now I wonder if those 3 groups of friends would have talked shit as well because they are also super republican/conservative. It’s hard to say because those assholes didn’t even some 2 never contacted me at all. Fuck them.

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